Those 3 Am night chats

Those 3 Am night chats

"Some dreams are born to be dreams". Under those infinite stars with your millions of memories, I was sitting. "You know whenever I feel low I always sit alone on that terrace floor and think so deeply about those things which are hurting me"!!

And that's what I was doing in that cool freezy night. Being with you I got so many unforgettable memories that it was becoming difficult for me to escape from my smile while thinking about them. But then feeling your absence behind me, my eyes filled with unstoppable tears. This time I didn't wipe them because it's been more than a year I have been controlling them and the older things get, the deeper they hurt.

Those 3 Am night chats

Yes, that night I cried out so loud that nobody listened.

Into my hands on my phone screen, you were there with me smiling like an idiot. Yes, it was your childhood picture which you shared with me a year before when your every single second was mine. I remember that promise that you use to make after every conversation "Girl don't worry I am always there for you. Call me or text me whenever you feel low". And now I search for that promise every single minute.

Every day my life goes fine until I stand in front of the mirror at night and faces a real me. My eyes now also search for you in every guy I meet but couldn't find a perfect one like you.

These tears always bring flashbacks of those memories. I remember that night when after dinner we went for having my favorite ice-cream and while coming back home I was tightly holding your left arm and leaned my head over your shoulder as always. Seeing me you laughed out loud because my lips were filled with chocolate all around. Under the dim lights of that lamppost, you stepped towards me and wiped whole chocolate with you lips giving me a sweet kiss.

I wasn't able to come out of your aroma around me and suddenly my eyes got stuck on 3 am on my phone screen.
Yes!! Another memory.
Those 3 am late night chats were damn special because every chat brought me closer your soul.

Every single minute of our memories was bringing me closer to you.
Then distracting my mind and maturely understanding the reality of life I deleted your last picture, that note reciting the line " Be with me forever because I love you more than myself!!" and all those possible memories.
And with new day sunshine, I stepped into my new life without your presence beside me.

                           Thanks💕